Stephen Moore - Walsh College Testimonial

A Glimpse Into My Past

 What my blog has meant to represent the whole time, my family, my life, when I first saw this assignment this is what I thought of A glimpse into my life, this is what goes on everyday I work, go to school take care of my family. Even though most of the time it is very stressful I still cant imagine my life without them. Each one of these pictures represent a time in my life when I had no worries, i was a child, my biggest problem was my mom  letting me to go out and play. When I see my dad in these pictures it takes me back because I dont see that man anymore, he looks strong here the man i always knew, so much has changed I really wish it wouldn't. 

My Life, The Good and the Bad

There are many things that can bring us to our knees in life, stress I believe is the number one killer in human motivation. School worries me and causes stress, work is of course annoying and stressful to anyone. However the stress that I am referring to is something that involves something bad happening to your loved ones. My first blog I ever wrote was on my father getting sick, and even though he has improved since he first went to the doctors, we still have a long way to go.

 this picture was taken two weeks before my dad was admitted into the hospital, so much has changed since this picture was taken. 

Seeing someone you love going through something as hard as having heart problems, really hurts you and causes you to lose sleep, you are watching someone that has been your hero your whole life go through Hell basically and there is nothing that you can do to help them, just sit and watch. You ask is there anything you can possibly get them, however that look in there eyes, the look that they are about to give up just breaks your heart in everyway. When I saw that in my own fathers eyes, the man that always pushed me and never let me give up no matter how big or small the problem was, when I saw that I felt like my heart was going to come out of my chest. I couldn’t believe this was happening.

The reason I am writing about this again is because I want everyone to know even though it might be a cliché to not take your loved ones for granted, tomorrow really is not promised. For the past few months it has been in and out the doctors office, we have to go to this specialist then to another, my dad cant catch a break and it is not only weighing down on him but on the whole family as well. In December when they first put the pacemaker in, it was supposed to help him, and don’t get me wrong he has improved since he got it but still his heart rhythms are not good, his heart is still not pumping enough blood and he is still looking and feeling weak.

My grandmother always used to tell me, take care of your mom and dad because they wont be here forever, and I remember as a child thinking what is she talking about my mom is superwomen and my dad well I was a daddy’s girl so my dad was the toughest, smartest and best dad in the whole world, so how in the world can anything ever happened to him, that’s not possible right? Well even though some will read this and say its obvious they cant live forever, but the thing is when you love someone you really think they will live forever because you love them so much that you so desperately want them to, because you cant imagine your life without them, you cant imagine them missing a single moment in your life, or you calling them and asking them how there day is.

When my dad got sick, and the doctors told us that his heart could stop at any minute, I honestly think that day my world just shattered everything was moving in fast motion and I didn’t know how to stop it, I so wanted it to slow down, it was one thing after another. One day the doctor would say everything looks good, then I felt the next second he would come back with some more bad news. I also believe what was hardest for me is seeing the look on my dads face, he was worried about us and trying to calm us down, while we were scared to death about what was happening to him.

My wish to anyone that Is reading this blog, is please don’t take your loved ones for granted, do not think they will live forever because they wont, one day out of no where when you least expect it, something will come and knock you down. The only thing I could do is Pray. I prayed for my dad, I prayed for my mom, my sisters and I prayed that if God forbid anything happened to him that God would help us through it. My faith is very important to me and I know for a fact that God got us through it, and will continue to help us through the hard times that are coming.

 The weekend before this wedding, my dad and I got into an argument, because i was begging him to go to the doctors with me, but he still would not listen, when i think about it now I believe he was scared to go, because he did not know what the doctor would say, and he had every reason to be scared. 

 In this picture, its two of my mom's sisters, they helped us so much and still continue to while my mom and I take my dad to the hospital and doctor visits, they take care of my two sisters. 

My sisters, are my life they are the most important people to me, the day my dad was admitted into the hospital the first time, it was Gina's 16th birthday (the one in the black) my dad even though sick and could barley breath, tried his hardest to make that day special for her calling her non-stop and even asking her to forgive him, that broke all of our hearts, makes me cry now thinking about that day. 

I truly (try) to live by this, even though we still have a long way to go regarding my dad's health, I believe in God I try to never panic just pray. 

These are some video's about congestive heart failure, I hope this will help anyone that has someone in their life going through what my dad is.

MY NEW PASSION

This week's blog i will be talking about a passion I have had for a long time towards something however did not find the courage to pursue it. Since i am the oldest in my family, my main concern has been to help them in what they need and putting myself second. I chose to go into Business because I felt that it what I was most good at, however since I can remember I have had a passion for something else as well, and that passion to open my own business as a wedding planner. I really do enjoy arts and crafts, I love creating new things at home, from different flower arragnments to trying and decorating my house in a different way.

Starting this class and seeing how many different things my classmates are into, really inspired me to go for what I always loved the most. I will be graduating in the summer and after I graduate i plan to persure something in Interior Design. My biggest fear with this passion is how will i make myself know, there are so many wedding planners out there and I always feared how will I seperate myself from others. This class has really helped me in seeing what I can do to make myself known and I can see that through social Media and hard work I would be able to one day have my own business as a wedding planner. To be honest my family was not really exceited for this just becauase they are worried it will be time wasted and that if I do  not succeed I will be crushed. However the way that I see it is if I dont try I will never know.

Here are some different pictures to what I would love to create one day for my own wedding and for the weddings of others.

I really love the detail in this wedding, the colors, table settings this honestly makes me smile. 

This one is my favorite so far, I feel that it is so elegant, I love the flowers and the crystals hanging from the flowers take my breath away. 

This wedding style reminds me of a victorian style wedding, the gold chairs, the bold colors in the flowers everything about this picture I love 

I really Hope everyone enjoyed this blog, because i honestly could not wait to share this I also uploaded a video that Gives you an idea of different types of wedding decorations. 

My First Love, My Car

The day I got my first car was probably one of the happiest days of my life. I witnessed many of my friends get their cars before me and for a while I thought my parents were never going to buy me one. However when I turned 17 I walked out to my biggest surprise, a brand new Toyota Camry. When you do not have a car, and see everyone around you going crazy about their cars, if your parents bought you anything you would pretty much love it. My new love (car) was baby blue and literally had about 100 miles on it. It was love at first sight; I even wanted to sleep in it if I could have. The first time I drove the car was going to my psychology class at Oakland Community College, and that day I can honestly say I will never forget. I felt so amazing and so free. It was as if my biggest dream had come true, I also remember my mom calling me that day at least 20 times before I arrived to school, and mind you that OCC was at that time 10 minutes with traffic from my house, but I guess that’s what mom’s do is worry, so I really didn’t mine. I put my radio on and behaved as if I had just won the lottery. Two weeks later I got my first ticket for driving 10 over, but that still didn’t ruin my happiness. However my parents threated that if I got one more ticket they would take the car away. These are memories that I will never forget; these are things that I will share with my own kids one day. I will surprise them like my parents did to me; call them 20 times like my mom called me. Even though they made me wait a little longer then most of my friends had to wait, I am still very grateful for them buying that car for me it was my first love. 

First Time Attending College

This week, I am going to talk about starting college for the first time. I will never forget that day, when I started school at Oakland Community College. I have never been more excited and scared in my entire life. Being the oldest in my family I had a lot of pressure put on me from my parents. Since I was a child they would tell me we came to America so you can have a better life, you have to do something good with your life and not struggle like we did. Also with being the oldest you also have many demands from your family such as making phone calls for them, and in my case writing bills. However back to my first day of college, my first class was Psychology with Dr. Sobal. I remember that day I went to school an hour early, had so many pencils that I believe I did not need to buy anymore the rest of the semester. My notebook had my name on it, I made sure I got his syllabus before the class, I needed to be prepared. Now when I think back I laugh, not that school should not be taken seriously, but when I remember how nervous I was I also see how much I have grown as a student. I am much more confident in what I am doing and what I am learning. When I started OCC I didn’t even know what I wanted to major in. One day I wanted to be a doctor, the other day a lawyer and even for about a week I wanted to teach elementary school. However that’s what college is about, finding yourself, and through OCC that’s exactly what I did. While at OCC I also had a hard time figuring out what University to transfer to, then one day I see a sign about Walsh College and it stated that they would transfer up to 82 credits, that was much more then any other University was offering. So in order to save more money since OCC a the time was about 70 dollars a credit, I decided to stay there longer, finishing as much classes there I could then finally in 2010 I transferred to Walsh. I also must say I loved College so much more then high school. It was such a surreal experience to me, attending a class that ranged in different ages among the students. I felt for the firs time in my life like an adult. If I could go back there are some things I would change, however for the most part I loved and enjoyed it every second of the way.  

Shopping for Prom dresses

This weeks blog is going to be about shopping for prom dresses, as most of us know shopping for prom dresses can be pretty stressful, however shopping with my sister is 10 times more stressful then it should be. I love her to death, however she is the most strong headed person I have ever met in my entire life. Shopping with a prom dress with her is probley one of the hardest ad painful things I ever had to go through. She doesn’t know what she wants, but she wont listen to your advice either. At times I would wonder why am I even here, she is determined to have a dress that nobody at the prom will have. You see personally I am different; if I love the dress I am wearing I really don’t care if someone at the prom has the same thing. Now I know everyone wants to be different and stand out, however if you feel good and comfortable with what you are wearing then in my opinion that should not matter. Even when I was 18 it didn’t matter, I know everyone is different but WOW was this hard. I remember telling my mom that if prom dress shopping is difficult, imagine shopping for her wedding dress whenever that day will be I really don’t want to be there, I just want to show up after she picks the dress. Now that may be harsh to say, and I am exaggerating a little on that part, however by the end of the day and that means shopping from 11 in the morning until 8 at night, we were dead tired and still no dress found. My sister then said she wants her dress custom made, which meant no more shopping at the mall, however that brought on a whole new to do list, and I feel bad for whoever she picks to create this dress.